Newness

There is much you don't know about me. And there is much changing right now.




I am going to start paying attention to this blog again. It will probably be very introspective for a while. I am going to set up a seperate photo blog as soon as I figure out how to do that.....

One step at a time and all will be well - ya whatever. I can only go at a slow and steady pace right now. But it works.

The Tide

Photo Credit:©Thefeld_4688 sm.jpg - my cousin, David

I don’t know when the tide turned or if it has completely.
I do know it is different now.
Our communication is the best it has ever been.
I am so very impressed with us.
It took 10 years to learn to do this.
We are ourselves now too.
While there is much to be said for that – sometimes it is a little weird.
“Honey, will you look at this thing on my butt? I can’t see what is.”
Ya, kinda weird.
Special and endearing but a bit odd.
You lose some mystery however, it is replaced by a comfort of knowing.
We know each other – we share our thoughts with each other.
The questions we have are asked and we are certain of the responses.
We believe in one another.
We make plans and set goals together.
A process we haven’t done before really.
We have worked at a goal.
We haven’t collaborated in the past.
We simply took steps and made plans to meet a conclusion.
There was no togetherness about it.
We were simply existing together.
We are better now.
Bright, happy, moving forward.
I am so very impressed with us.

Paradox - nope not the MD kind...

I can be a procrastinator.
I can be very pro-active.

I don’t mind when some things don’t get started.
I need to finish projects as quickly as possible.

I allow my mind to wander to distant places for
extended periods of time.
I have sharp focus and insight on the task
in front of me.

I am philosophical – finding
the Enlightened Path.
I crave logic - it all must make sense.

I am comfortable alone with my thoughts.
I need people.

Wishes

Strength
Power
Courage
Conviction
Foresight
Competitiveness
Focus
Resilience
Humor
Love

Which one first?
DISCIPLINE

Awhile

He said he would be awhile.
I never know what that means exactly.
Should I expect him in an hour,
two hours,
a day, a week,
a month?
What is the time measurement of awhile?

I wanted to tell her
she would feel better soon –
it would just take awhile.
I didn’t tell her that. It sounded wrong to me.
What would I answer when she asks
how long is awhile?

When you are in emotional pain
and distress – seconds become days.
Awhile doesn’t help.