Lazy

I got the courage and ditched the procrastination and got on the scale at the gym. HA - nothing unexpected there. The last time I weighed myself and allowed myself to look at the number it was almost the same. Yup still 20 pounds heavier than I want to be. I refuse to look at the scale at the doctor's office. There is something so brutal about that. I don't know exactly why it feels that way I only know I won't do it. Haven't for many years.

So, lest you think I am some sort of obsessed with thin - allow me to explain the 20 pounds. It has taken two years to gain that weight. That is 10 pounds a year. It starts in the winter and I never make it go away. I accept the extra pounds and the tighter clothes and keep going. Next year happens again, same story, same song, same acceptance. My clothes don't fit. I am not in a position to buy all new clothes. Mostly because I dun wanna. That is simply ridiculous. If I would simply exert myself and adjust my eating habits it would be so much better. I am not getting any younger. Any endeavor of this manner is not going to be easy. The longer I wait; the older I get. The older I get the harder it is to affect this change. Translation: Older me has a really hard time losing the fat and fab. I hate jiggly underarms. Bleh.

And I joined a gym again. It is good. The last time I got serious and took charge the gym was the deciding factor for me. I am beginning in fits and starts this time. I will go a few days then skip for too many days. The feeling of comfort and familiarity is coming back more and more each time I walk in. I will acclimate to this present environment soon. I am not concerned about that. Once I get started and find a rhythm I don't want to stop. I tried going back to the hard core weight training. That didn't work. I took a step back went to the machines and started at the beginning. I thought I had over done my legs yesterday. Using these two machines among others.

(Images courtesy of google - seated extension with red pads, nautilus leg press top)

Sadly that was not the case. My legs were not even the least bit sore today. That means to me I am giving up before my body is ready to quit. My lazy takes over. My torture of choice today was a run. It was 5 miles but I couldn't run the entire thing. I will keep trying. Tomorrow is arms day. OWWWW.

More on dietary changes later.

Now I am tired.

Lost and now somewhat forgotten

I was looking for some photos on my laptop. I wanted to add some color and vibrancy to the post.
The pictures are gone. Like gone-gone. Nowhere to be found. The folder is as well. We were both doing things with photos on the computer. So, it could have been either one of us. But, sadly I did not notice it until now. The last time I remember working with them was a couple of months ago. The chances are they are gone forever.  What is truly the saddest part about all this........... not the first time.

 I lost a large number of photos a couple of years ago. My computer crashed and took all the fun pictures with it. I bought the back-up drive, the jump drive and then proceeded to let it happen again. Because of course I did. Why not?  Lesson learned? HA!! Didn't learn it last time.

I went and got the old jump drive out of the drawer. There are some pictures on there though not many. Seems to be the ones I had printed a while back. And one picture of boo-boo that I had forgotten. Probably the last picture I took of him. No learning taking place here I guess. Just sadness.  Bleh.

Here's Boo-Boo. He's always good for a smile.

Changes

Good Bad or Otherwise. They are the only constant we have. And man oh man are there a lot of them going on now.

So, we make the adjustments. There are some that don't feel good. I try not to let the dark side - the Oh No side - come into my thoughts too much. I am trying to be open and accepting. So far, ain't workin'.

Changes are upon us  - Bleh.